Our second week

Brian had to go back to work on the 20th of October, Grandma Kyle came to help out that day. The baby blues reared it's ugly head again as the next day I would be flying solo. I was terrified. The feeding, pumping and even changing the dirty diapers wasn't a concern. What if Jacob started to cry and I was unable to console him. And that's exactly what happened. It seems like every other day he's fussy and there's not a thing I can do to fix it. It's extremely stressful and frustrating. I feel like a failure most days. I'm trying to juggle all this stuff at the same time and feel like I get nothing accomplished. I know it will get easier, but for the moment it's hard and I just want to lay my head down and cry.

We did move back upstairs and really I wish we had done so sooner, it's so much more comfortable. Course the swelling is gone (took about a week for that to go away) I actually can see my ankle bones again hahaha. I get up in the night with Jacob so that Brian can try to get a good night's sleep. Then when he comes home from work he takes over.

We gave Jacob his first sponge bath a few days after we had him home. He absolutely loves it when you poor warm water over his head. I was afraid he'd shriek, but nope. He lays back and the look on his face is priceless. That of course changes when you try to clean the rest of him. He can get fussy especially once you get to the bottom half. He does not like to be undressed.