The good and the ugly

I'll start with the ugly. The last two doctor's appointments that I've had, have left me miserable and sad. I dread these weekly appointments and for that alone, wish the pregnancy were over with. Out of nowhere, my ankles have started to swell and really have stayed somewhat swollen. It doesn't matter what I wear or what the temperature is. I gained 9lbs at my last visit due to all the water weight. I totally did not believe it at all and weighed myself at home to see if it was really true. And it showed I'd only gained 3. That made me feel much better until today, I only lost 1 lb. I was hoping for a more realistic weigh in, but my ankles are still swollen, so it's no surprise.

At my last visit I was a fingertip dilated. This visit, no progress. For the first time I heard the word induction come out of my doctor's mouth and that kinda freaks me out a little. Okay, well it freaks me out A LOT. I don't want to be induced. Bring on the pineapple, eggplant parm, red raspberry leaf tea and anything else that will help to induce me naturally. C'mon, send me all the old wives tales you can think of to help me out a bit. The doctor did say that the baby is healthy, heartrate is great, I'm doing well. She's not concerned about the swelling in my legs at all. Only if it starts to affect my hands/face or if I start getting headaches and seeing spots. For that I should be greatful and I know tomorrow I'll feel better, but for right now I just want to cry.

You see, I asked her if she knew about how big the baby was and at first she said she couldn't tell but then she said due to MY Size, that the baby could be bigger. The latest I could go would be 10/12 but wouldn't want the baby to get too big, so they would most likely induce sooner unless I go on my own. What??????? I thought I was doing well, she had told me moments earlier I was doing well, no protein in urine, good BP and good on weight gain. I realize that I was heavier than I should have been when I first got pregnant, but I don't think I'm a freaking whale.

The good.........my wonderful coworkers treated me to a surprise shower last Thursday complete with Muscoreil's signature cake. It was awesome and a complete surprise. They made me breakfast, ordered lunch out, brought lots of yummy extras. I received 2 beautiful handknitted blankets, Jacob's first Halloween outfit, a few outfits for when he gets bigger, two books that I can't wait to share with him and some bottles/bottles brushes/pacifiers and a first aid kit. I had such a great time.