It just occurred to me that I never shared the story of finding out. The DMV was closed for MLK Day and the next day was extremely busy. I was unfortunate enough to be working the info line and my first two customers reeked of foul things. It was so bad I was gagging and hurrying to get them away from my window. One of my co-workers looked at me and said "omg you are totally pregnant" I was like yeah right, there is no way. I was already prepared for the month of Jan to be an unlucky month. It just didn't feel right. Now since we had started trying I had been buying handfuls of preg tests from the dollar store and using them like they were going out of style. My mom filled my stocking for Christmas with more tests and Brian even wrapped some up for me.
The Sat. following MLK Day, Brian had gotten up early to help out with the Boy Scouts and I thought what the heck, I know it's super early but let me test anyway. I also figured since Brian was gone let me waste one of the expensive tests because then he wouldn't know. So after I took the test I picked it up and was ready to toss it when something caught my eye. I looked and looked again, oh my, was it, was that a line???? No way, how could it be? OH MY GOD it was a faint line!! I ran to the phone to call my mom and thought wait a minute, I should tell Brian first but he wasn't there and then I remembered my mom had gone away for the weekend so she wasn't there either. I ran downstairs to google pictures of positive tests because I just wasn't believing what I was seeing. I remember feeling so many different emotions. Most importantly I was happy. But then I was like uh oh are we sure we're ready? Um, what if I'm a horrible mom and then I started to cry but there was no one here to console me.
It was around 8:30 that I had tested and I had no clue as to when Brian would be back. The next 3 hours seemed like years. Every so often I would have to go back and look at the test to see if the line was still there. When he got home I ran upstairs and said "I have something to show you, but don't get your hopes up." He looked at the test and goes "yeah you're not pregnant" I was like "what??? look again". He said "the line is too faint, shouldn't it be darker for it to be positive." I said "a line is a line" I showed him pictures that I had found online of positive tests. It was most likely so faint because it was only 10 days post ovulation, I wasn't even late yet. I'll never forget the look on Brian's face when he saw pictures of the positive tests online. He had tears in his eyes and said "so there is really a baby in there?"
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Now its my turn to tell....well, I was very sad because we had to have our cat put down. I knew it was the right thing to do but I was still very sad. After all...she was with us since she was a baby and that was 12 years ago. So, I talked to Rachel and she said I sounded so sad. So, we had hung up the phone and she called right back. She said "are you sitting down?" I knew what the next words were going to be. I can even remember screaming but I do remember saying "Are you serious?" "Are you really serious?"
"You wouldn't kid me would you?" Brian said I was screaming so loud he could hear me across the room. You see....I have been waiting for this day for a while. Once your children are grown, its time to have more babies...only these you can spoil and send home!!! Needless to say, I am so very excited. Rachel always said she was not having children. And my sister-in-law said "Yeah, that's what I always said" (and she has 3). Well, then Rachel said I couldn't tell anyone...until she was sure. Then after the first dr. appt. she said I had to wait til they heard the babies heartbeat. Yeah, I have been so excited...did she really think I could keep the secret??? I didn't want to ruin her surprise when she tells the family. We are about the share the news with the family on Easter. That is when we are celebrating Great Grandpa Kyle's birthday. Once the family knows, then I can tell the whole world!!!!! I love you baby...oh, and you too Rachel and Brian!!!
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