I'm on a roll

It's amazing what you can get done when you have a few days off. Not only have we accomplished quite a bit, but I've also had plenty of time to keep updating the blog. I finished Jacob's name. They look ok for a first timer. I've only ever painted on canvas, never wooden letters. My plan is to attach white sheer ribbon and nail them up over his crib. I haven't added the ribbon yet in case those plans change.

I also put together the cubicle shelf and we have it temporarily set up in the nursery, just to get an idea. It was a little more difficult to put together than I thought it would be. Most definitely since Jacob kept getting in the way. Not to toot my own horn, but I think I'm pretty good at putting this kind of stuff together and usually have no problems doing so. The directions weren't the greatest and there were these screws that go in part way and then the other end acts like a dowel. They were extremely difficult to screw in and I was waiting for Brian to get home from Home Depot to help but then I thought hmmmm...I wonder if that power drill would work. Brian had offered it to me when I first started but I stuck my nose up at it. I don't mind using a regular screwdriver and some elbow grease. But I've also never used a power tool like that and didn't want to admit it. Yes, I am a stubborn dork.

After hemming and hawing I decided to just try it and go slow. So I connect the drill to the difficult screw and timidly push the button. It was set up to go in the wrong direction and started to pull the screw out. Crap!!! I set it up to go in the right direction and push the button again. WOWOWOWOW!!!!!!! Why hadn't I known about this miracle tool before?? Do you realize how many pieces of furniture I've put together prior to this and used a regular screwdriver???? What a breeze and when is that damn crib going to get here!!!!!!

Okay, I'll admit I'm far from an expert when it comes to taking pictures, so I'm not sure why the wall looks curved, but I can assure you the chair rail isn't crooked. Remember this is just a temp set up to see what it would look like, so please ignore the unfinished trim, the cluttered closet, and the door off it's hinges. We haven't decided if we're going to get 1 more bin for the bottom right corner or just fill them all in with the blue bins. I also would like to get a different lamp. But here's another piece to the nursery. We're getting there.

Happy Birthday Daddy!!

A couple weeks ago Brian bought Jacob his first Buffalo Bill's outfits. A Lynch Jersey and jacket/windpants with the Bill's logo. I teased him that my son will not be wearing the dreadful Bill's stuff. Well for Brian's birthday I just couldn't resist and bought him a matching Lynch Jersey. For once in my life I actually can't wait for Football Season to start. I can't wait to see Brian sitting in his chair holding Jacob and they both are wearing the Jerseys. Jacob's will be a little big on him, but that's ok. It will make the perfect picture.

We ordered the glider/ottoman for the nursery today. I'm so excited. We procrastinated a little bit with this and therefore it might not be here when we bring Jacob home. They said it will take about 6-8 weeks. It will look just like the picture only the wood is a pecan honey color and we got the ottoman to match. We decided to get it with the locking feature, just in case curious hands get caught in the spindles.

Jacob's name is almost done. I just have a little bit more to paint and then I'll post pictures, most definitely this weekend. Sunday is my first shower, I'm so excited. The big day is coming faster and faster. 7 weeks and 2 days to go, provided he shows up on the due date. Yikes!!!!

First nightmare

I was so excited to finally get a good night's sleep, despite getting up 4 times to use the bathroom and I couldn't wait to sleep in this morning. Normally before bed I would read baby books, magazines or surf the net for baby stuff. Well lately I've been reading this new series that is out in stores and very popular, so I have fallen behind on my baby reading. Since I'm waiting to borrow the 4th book, I figured I'd catch up. Huge mistake.

Brian is rolling his eyes as I type this, but I'm hoping to go through much of the "laboring" process in the comforts of home. I'm still really eager to try a natural childbirth, though I am totally open to an epidural. One of my concerns is that if I go to the hospital too soon that I'll want that epi right away. But I also realize that when having a baby, anything can happen. So we'll see. I know it most likely won't be easy.

I dreamt that I did just that, labored mostly at home and by the time I got to the hospital I was ready to push. I don't know how I got to the hospital, my guess is an ambulance because neither Brian nor my mom were there. (I want both Brian and my mom in the delivery room) So I started pushing and had Jacob, it hurt a lot but was fairly easy. They said I tore a little and would need maybe a stitch or two and I thought phewww, thank goodness. Then I saw the doctor and the nurse off to the side holding onto some medical instruments and I heard the doctor say it was time for the episiotomy and I'm was thinking what??? How could I need that now when the baby has already been delivered. I argued with the doctor and the nurses that there was no way in heck they were going to cut me, just to sew me back up, NO WAY. I got up off the bed and started to back away, I ran into the hallway screaming bloody murder for someone to help me. Finally the doctor angrily shoved his clipboard at me to have me sign something stating I was okay with not having the episiotomy.

I go back into the room and there sits my mother holding Jacob. I remember looking at his dark hair and chunky cheeks. She tries to hand him to me and I totally refused him. I said I didn't want him and she could keep holding him. She kept trying to get me to take him and I wouldn't. I refused my own child. I started to lay back down on the bed and a different doctor comes into the room with a catheter in his hand. He has his back to me at the sink but goes "well are we ready for the catheter?" I remember thinking here we go again. I said I don't need a catheter as I never had an epidural. He was like sure you do and I argued with him. I asked if he didn't hear all the screaming that had just taken place, and to go ask the nurses if I had been up and out of bed already. I could manage going to the bathroom myself. We argued for a few more minutes and then he left. Thank goodness I woke up after that. hahaha.

Yes, I absolutely do have an overactive imagination. However, I guess those are all legitimate fears that I have about labor & delivery. I'm terrified of being alone in the delivery room, I'm terrified of episiotomies and catheters and most importantly I'm scared of not "bonding" with my son after he's born. I guess it's hard to believe that being childless is about to end when for as long as I can remember back, I was NEVER going to have children EVER. I never felt maternal so what if that maternal instinct doesn't kick in for me???

My mind tried to reassure me that everything would be fine, even if it were for just a few moments because when I went back to sleep I had another dream. We had brought the baby home and I was happy. Brian was here with me and everything felt like it should be. I brought the baby upstairs to the changing table and was about to change the first diaper at home. When I took off the diaper that's when I discovered that Jacob was actually Olivia. What the heck?????

8 weeks left?????

I know it's been awhile since I've updated and I apologize for that. Things have been so crazy busy around here. I'm getting a good taste of what it will be like when Jacob's here, minus the baby of course. hahaha

Good news first............I don't have gestational diabetes, whooohooooo!!!!!! I kinda thought I was in the clear when I hadn't heard from the doctor and she confirmed that for me today. She did say to still keep an eye on all the sweets. Weight gain = 2lbs. Not bad, not bad. Very pleased with that news as well. I'm feeling a little out of whack these days. I can't get comfortable for the life of me in any position, lying down, sitting, standing. Even though it's much more difficult to sleep through the night, I'm finding myself napping in the evening (which is something I never do). I spent $50 on a damn Snoogle pillow only to be using a regular pillow between my knees. And believe you me, I'll never live that one down. hahaha. I'm already feeling a lot of pressure down below and I hear that will only get worse, yippeee!!!

My mom got to go with me today to the doc appt. It was so cool to share the experience with her. She was able to hear Jacob's heartbeat, which is still in the 140's and stronger than ever. I'm so lucky to have her in my life. I don't know what I'd do without her. Loveyou Mom!!!

Jacob is really moving around in there these days. Last week, while at my parent's house for dinner, he kicked my mom. She had her hand rested on my ginormous belly and was talking to him. Before I could say be patient, he'd kicked her like 3 times in a row, as if to say "hey lady, kindly remove your hand from my momma's belly." It was too cute. He kicked Brian in the head this morning as Brian laid his head on my belly while talking to Jacob. The look on Brian's face was priceless, I had to laugh.

Can you believe there are only roughly 8 weeks left???????? Seriously, where did the time go? I feel nowhere near ready to have a baby come live with us. Yeah, there are only a few more pieces of trim to stain, but our furniture hasn't arrived yet. It should be here before the end of August, so I don't know why I'm so panicked, but I am. I've decided not to do the stencils of Mother Goose on the wall, I'd rather not have Mother Goose overkill. Instead we're going to put Jacob's name up on the wall above his crib. I have started to paint the wooden letters that we'll be using, they look pretty good. Once they are complete, I'll post a pic. In the meantime, I'll try to find a pic to show you what I'm talking about.

So I think that's about it for now. Tomorrow, is my last day of work before my vacation. So I'll try to get some more stuff done so that I can take pics and show them to you all. No, I'm not out on maternity leave just yet. Apparently any vacation time that I scheduled for this year, I have to take. Never mind that it was scheduled in January before I knew I was pregnant. No biggie, I need a break anyway.

Pray that this little bean stays in the oven longer, we need him to bake as long as possible, no matter how uncomfortable I am. Hugs and kisses to you all.